I don't know how to describe this feeling I have, but I can describe what it is doing to this stomach of mine, it feels like somebody has their hands on my intestines and is squeezing the turning them. Alone is a not the word I am looking for, but for now it will fit.
I have worked for this company for nearly two years. Two long, stressed filled, dedicated years I have put into this place, riding with it through some rough storms, staying at work with a sleeping bag at times, watching new recruits come in month after month and then watching them go back out the door for lack of whatever character flaw they possessed for the bosses to not keep them.I did everything they asked without question, Only for it all to come to a end, the friendships, routines, meetings, progressions and goals, the little things that have been worked on for nearly two years is over in a blink of an eye its done with, not just for this week or for when you get back its done for now and ever.
Roll the credits and don't forget your coat, its a cold world out there.
I cant say that I am totally upset, sometimes i felt by some obscure sense of destiny I was trapped there, and in a way I was, but only under my own accord. I could have left at any point in time and thought about it from time to time but didn't want to, not only because i gave up some very important friendships and an education to stay with the company but I felt as though as if I was doing something of a higher purpose.
This challenge that is in front of me is a rough one, possibly the biggest opponent I have ever faced in this arena called life. I am dealing with finding a job in a jobless market. Let me tell you there is nothing like looking for something that is not there lol.
Right now, the only plan I have is that I can go back to school, (if you know me, you know how well i do with making plans lol) I will spend this week working on that, its not a solid plan, and if i remember correctly its not a money making plan but its something that will work for now and I do remember it being fun. Who knows maybe when I get out of the classroom the job market will be less bleak? Only time will tell.
I have worked for this company for nearly two years. Two long, stressed filled, dedicated years I have put into this place, riding with it through some rough storms, staying at work with a sleeping bag at times, watching new recruits come in month after month and then watching them go back out the door for lack of whatever character flaw they possessed for the bosses to not keep them.I did everything they asked without question, Only for it all to come to a end, the friendships, routines, meetings, progressions and goals, the little things that have been worked on for nearly two years is over in a blink of an eye its done with, not just for this week or for when you get back its done for now and ever.
Roll the credits and don't forget your coat, its a cold world out there.
I cant say that I am totally upset, sometimes i felt by some obscure sense of destiny I was trapped there, and in a way I was, but only under my own accord. I could have left at any point in time and thought about it from time to time but didn't want to, not only because i gave up some very important friendships and an education to stay with the company but I felt as though as if I was doing something of a higher purpose.
This challenge that is in front of me is a rough one, possibly the biggest opponent I have ever faced in this arena called life. I am dealing with finding a job in a jobless market. Let me tell you there is nothing like looking for something that is not there lol.
Right now, the only plan I have is that I can go back to school, (if you know me, you know how well i do with making plans lol) I will spend this week working on that, its not a solid plan, and if i remember correctly its not a money making plan but its something that will work for now and I do remember it being fun. Who knows maybe when I get out of the classroom the job market will be less bleak? Only time will tell.
